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It’s been some time since I wrote a personal update. So here is a brief synopsis of what I’m up to.
Last week I had my long awaited appointment with the ophthalmologist to see what is wrong with my left eye. It has been acting up for about 2 years now or more, but I didn’t go to the doctor until last week. It also took about a month and a half to get the appointment.
Anyway, I have some burst blood vessels in the left eye that is causing the problem, and it was caused by the diabetes as I expected. Since the diabetes is now under control, it isn’t getting any worse, but to fix the damage will require an eye injection and some laser surgery.
I am not sure I want to do this because the sungazing was healing the eye, but since I stopped sungazing in January it has gotten worse again. But, since I am now fairly sure that all of my problems are attributed to diabetes, I may start sungazing again, but I have to think this over long and hard since I can’t walk barefoot on bare earth, especially now.
I suppose the sudden problem in my foot could still have been caused by sungazing, but all the evidence seems to point to diabetes as the most likely cause. I think going off of my diet while I was working made the diabetes get bad again, which is what caused the bad chain of events.
Meanwhile, since I am confined to a wheelchair every day all day now, I have plenty of time to read. The latest book I’ve been reading is The Holographic Universe. I originally started reading it as research on a book I’m writing on success.
Seriously, I now understand why the law of attraction works. Simply put, all things are possible if you will only believe, just like the Bible says. Sadly, I think we have totally missed the message, and instead covered it all up with religious nonsense all of these years. However, I believe an awakening is already happening, and this will lead to a better world.
In fact, since time is merely an illusion, that better world is already here. See my upcoming book for more exciting details when I bring it out.
Well, that’s about all I know for now. Have a great week.
I find myself at a major crossroads. The sungazing was correcting whatever the problem is with my left eye, albeit slowly. Since I have suspended sungazing, I find that it is reverting back to the way it was.
My world has also shrunk to my desk and my bed, and even though they are only about 2 feet apart, it is very hard to move from one to the other and also dangerous as my desk chair is unstable. Also, if I don’t have help I don’t eat and going to the bathroom is an ordeal.
I have the task this afternoon to call a list of assisted care facilities here in Costa Rica, as it would be better at this point to have help with my meals and going to the bathroom, etc., around the clock rather than the limits I have now with only having a maid for 4 hours per day.
It also doesn’t help that I have virtually no income and dwindling savings.
I really don’t know what the future holds, but my world has shrunk considerably, I can’t even pet my dog because of risk of infection, etc. My poor old dog is 15 years old and can’t understand why I am not with him as I usually am. I can only watch him from afar with sadness at his predicament as well as mine.
I may be off the net for a time when I move. I will update as I am able.
This is just a quick entry to let you know where I have been and why I haven’t been posting.
I have been very ill for about 5 weeks now. It turns out the problem was gangrene. If I knew how serious it was when it started I would have given it more attention but it seemed like a regular infection at first so I didn’t give it much thought.
After about 2 weeks I began to get very sick, but I still didn’t make the connection. However, a couple of weeks ago I got so ill I almost died. I started taking mms1 and that helped me out a bit, as mms will kill almost anything including gangrene if given a chance.
Unfortunately, even though the mms was helping, I was too sick to deal with its side effects very well.
I then learned how to properly apply bentonite clay, which also cures gangrene, to my foot. My foot was hardly swollen at all before this, but it swelled up like a balloon as the bentonite worked to pull out the poison from my foot. But the whole process was making me sicker even though it was killing the cause.
So, in desperation a week ago Tuesday I made sure I had someone in the house to watch me, and took an mms2 capsule with about half the recommended dose as a precaution.
Well, if mms1 is like a stick of dynamite mms2 is like an atomic bomb in comparison, it’s that much stronger. I was told by an mms practitioner to make sure and drink lots of water after taking it.
Within about 20 minutes of taking it I could feel it moving through my body and killing massive amounts of the pathogens. Unfortunately, I was already so weak and dehydrated that no matter how much water I drank I couldn’t stop the thirst.
I got weaker and weaker, and finally by 6 pm I went to the bathroom and when I came out I collapsed on the floor by the door and couldn’t get back up.
Fortunately, my friend was here and he barely managed to drag me to his car and rush me to an emergency room where they re-hydrated me and saved my life. They then took me for 3 xrays and had a doctor look at it.
I was then told that I needed immediate surgery or I was going to die. This was a private hospital here in Costa Rica, so I was not able to afford the surgery there, so I was transferred to the nearest public hospital. It took 4 hours of waiting until 4 am to see a doctor there, and he looked at my foot and looked at the xrays and also said I needed immediate surgery.
As they had no bed for me, they laid me down on an examination table, put an IV in my arm, and left me there until about 10 am when I got a shower and change of clothes. Right after that I was taken to my first surgery.
They first amputated my foot so they could observe to see if the infection had spread into my leg. The doctor saw that it had not, so they scheduled a second surgery and amputated my leg below the knee so that I could walk again someday with a prosthesis.
I was in the hospital for a week, and it was a very harrowing experience. Unfortunately I essentially live alone and can’t afford the kind of help I need for now so I am looking for some kind of place to go where they make my food and have help when I need it day and night. So far I haven’t found one of those yet either.
This was probably caused by a temporary flare up of my diabetes, but there is also the remote possibility this was caused by sungazing without walking barefoot, as I was up to about 35-40 minutes. I could actually feel the sun fighting the infection but it was not enough to save me from this. I have stopped sungazing indefinitely while I sort things out.
will be sending this post on to the HRM sungazing yahoo group to see if anyone has an insight on this.
About a week ago, when I got back from work, I was astonished to find that all the callouses on my left foot had literally exploded. There was blood on my sock, but there was no pain. The stuff that actually looked like blood was actually some kind of puss that had drained out.
I have known for several years that there was a deep seated systemic infection of my body that all attempts to get rid of have failed to eradicate. I have tried colloidal silver, etc., all to no avail. This infection seems to be related somehow to my allergy problems that I have also had since childhood. Sometimes a symptom seems like an allergy attack, while at others it seems like an infection. If I take colloidal silver and it’s an infection, I get a reaction. If I don’t get a reaction, then I know it is more related to my allergies.
For some time now, while sungazing, I have had watery eyes for a while, which I was attributing to allergies being drained from my system. The end of December is the worst time for my allergies of the whole year, and the last 5 years or so I have had crippling swelling in the mouth and gums as well as other very severe problems. It seems that they are allergy related because it comes during the transition to the dry season, at which time lots of plants suddenly begin to bloom.
However, last year I had these symptoms for about 3 months instead of just the last two weeks of December, and I had many other problems last year including my whole right hand side of my face swelling up. It also has effected my left eye, which the eye doctor said was a result of the swelling constricting the blood vessels into the eye, blurring my vision.
And it didn’t stop at the end of December last year like it usually does, and was only at the end of February last year that it became obvious something was terribly wrong.
So, I started on a diet. By April it was vegetarian and since May it has been mostly vegan. Now, just today, I have started a raw food diet to knock out these problems and cleanse my system. I am expecting this healing crisis to get worse before it gets better, but I need to get rid of these problems once and for all.
If anyone has any experience with sungazing causing a healing crisis, please let me know, as I’m sure I’m not the only one interested in this.
Below is a revised text of an email I just sent to a friend. I believe it’s contents are important to share:
Just got done listening to this interview. There is more to this than meets the eye on the surface that most people will not pick up on. I’m not sure you will believe this, but here is my observation:
Interview is here:
There were one or two clues that this “anonymous” “guy” was far more than what he appears to be. For example, he mentioned a “time delay” in sending and receiving of the questions and answers. There is no place on this planet where such a time lag would occur, as the speed of light carries signals back and forth so fast that any delay is not detectable to the human ear.
In order to have such a “time delay,” he would therefore be located somewhere off this planet. He also used certain code phrases, and I guess I will have to listen to portions of what he said again because I couldn’t understand some of what he said as I was listening from the kitchen while making breakfast as I usually do with a lot of Kerry’s stuff as usually it is not important to hear every word clearly, but I think some of this is very important.
He may be aboard a spaceship or even on the moon, but he is definitely not on this planet. However, the clues he leaves are very important. You will also recall that he said “one of my associates will visit you in about 7 day’s time and you will have to tell him the truth about your situation.”
So, wherever he and his associates are is far enough away that it may take up to a week to get here.
You will also note that he referred to the Illuminati as “dogs” who they send to “fetch the newspaper.”
He also said that what is about to happen has been at least several hundred years in the planning stage. He also talked about our great human potential.
Putting all of the pieces together, I think we may have been listening to an “angel,” or, to put it into more modern terms, one of the “good Annunaki” who are totally opposed to the renegade group in control of this planet, and that “their days are numbered.”
The Annunaki are divided into 2 main factions, with the “bad guys” being about 1/3rd of them and the “good guys” being about 2/3rds. The “good guys” are mostly not on this planet at the moment, but are back home on Nibiru, and they appear to only have access to this planet when Nibiru gets close enough to us, which is a long involved story.
For a fascinating discussion on these subjects, including “the nature of angels,” see the 3 chapters of my unfinished book, The Secret Mysteries of the Ages. Please bear in mind that this was written 6 years ago, and I’ve learned a lot since then, so I no longer agree with all of it. But there is enough truth there that reveals a lot about what is going on here below:
There is no doubt in my mind that Nibiru is now very close, and that soon it will be “within range” for the vast majority to be able to come here. There is also a contingent of the “holy watchers” who are stationed offsorld but fairly close by who are the eyes and ears for “the good guys.” The “guy” on Kerry’s radio show is probably one of these.
The bad guys are literally scared to death of “HIM,” or the one the Book of Enoch calls the God of gods, the King of kings, and the Lord of lords. Even the mention of HIS name sends them scurrying like the cockroaches they are.
I am not trying to say anything “religious” here, because when you strip away all the BS, you are left with some very astounding things.
But, in any event, the “war in heaven” is now reaching down to our planet, the Illuminati are about to be flushed down the toilet by the “God of Armies,” which some modern translations refer to HIM as. You notice that he also said that “within 20 years we will have a golden age that is unimaginable.” This is what they propose to do when they come here and take over this planet from the bad guys.
Also, I believe that our ascension is the next item on the list, and I believe that sun gazing is the quickest way to accomplish this that there is. The results in my own life have been astonishing so far, and I really miss it when I can’t sun gaze for days at a time because of the rotten weather here during this time of year. But sun gazing ignites the necessary changes in our DNA to enable us to evolve to a much higher state of being, and this is something that the Illuminati have struggled for thousands of years to suppress.
Since we are a genetically engineered species, there are certain “keys” that have been hard wired into our DNA that are only released when the appropriate trigger is introduced. The fastest and strongest of these triggers is sungazing.
This is one reason I think that you must begin sun gazing gradually as HRM recommends, because if you tried to do it too fast, you might “overload” your system. However, slow, steadily increasing exposure is what is needed to trigger the DNA that is hidden in our genetic code, after which we will begin the evolution process so that we will eventually become a god, which is about the closest term I can use that is understandable.
I have reached the conclusion that what is going on with my feet is the expulsion of massive amounts of pent up poisons in my body, and that this is actually a good thing, as this vile stuff needs to be expelled from my body for more healing to take place.
Well, that’s enough for now, it was nice talking to you last night.
The last week has been really rainy. September, October and November are the 3 rainiest months of the rainy season, which is right at the end.
I have not been able to get any decent sungazing in now for about 8 days as it has been overcast and or rainy now for over a week, and the last 2 days it has been raining almost constantly so I couldn’t even take the dog for a walk and he is not liking that at all.
It has also been cold for here. Currently, the temperature is at 64 degrees, and that is real cold for here and the night is young. If the cloud cover goes away, it may drop into the 50’s, which is pretty much unheard of for Costa Rica.
I had one day when I was able to get some fairly intense sun around 11 AM or so, but even that was sporadic. None the less, I got a good charge of energy then and the intense sunlight did not harm my eyes, but I am up to just over 13 minutes now so my eyes are accustomed to it somewhat by now.
However, I still feel that all new sungazers should follow the prescription of HRM strictly and I do not recommend anyone do what I have done. I did it because it was either that or nothing and I found I had a real desire for the sunlight.
I will mention though, that the positive effects from sungazing are mostly still with me, so it doesn’t wear off all that fast if at all, which solidifies my theory that the changes the sun makes to your mind and body can become permanent over time and continued exposure.
I have not had time to get the weight loss products set up yet, as I don’t generally work on the weekends and even though I intended on doing it today, I had some intense spiritual experiences while meditating to a yantra today. It was very intense, in fact, and brought back some recurring dreams that I have had about at some point hooking up with a major celebrity at some point that appears to be soon now.
I have had persistent dreams and or visions since 1992 about this celebrity and his best friend and fellow band member, but it looks like this may finally soon come about.
And that is not unusual, because Costa Rica is a magnet for celebrities traveling here to “get away from the crowds” and have some peace.
My first experience with that was while I was traveling with some friends of mine years ago who were in a local band here. They had a gig in Quepos at one of the major hotels there, and I was along for the ride. While sitting at the bar before the band was ready to play, I suddenly noticed there was a guy sitting next to me at the bar. I didn’t recognize him right away, but we started talking and it was an enjoyable conversation.
Finally, he looked at me and asked “do you know who I am?”
I said, “well, you look kind of familiar but I’m not sure.”
He then introduced himself as Billy Chrystal. At that time, which was the late ’90’s, his very famous City Slicker movies had just come out, and so finally I made the connection.
We had a very interesting conversation, during which he told me some interesting stories. I then said to him, “don’t worry, I’m not going to ask for your autograph or anything like that, I ‘m just going to treat you like anyone else.”
He actually appreciated that. When the band started to play or was about to, I told him that I had to go over to their table and sit with my friends, but, if he would like I would ask them if he could come over and sit with us.
Naturally, my friends said OK, and Billy Chrystal spent the whole night with us and he had a very good time. We stayed until they closed the bar and kicked us out.
So, yes, I have had some experience with celebrities in Costa Rica who come down here to “get away from it all,” and I respect their desire to get away from the insanity that’s Hollywood and have a vacation where they can pretend for a short time that they are just regular people.
I lived in Hollywood for a while and met some interesting people while I was there, and so I know that most of these celebrities are just people and most do not like all the bother and fuss that fame and fortune thrust them into. In fact, I think for some, it’s kind of a lonely life.
Anyway, I am not going to mention the name of the people my dreams have told me to expect, but they figured in today’s meditation quite a bit.
I guess that’s all I have for today’s update. I hope to get more work done tomorrow.